God Works in Mysterious Ways

for days... for weeks... I was getting sick because of a heartache already... Like when being emotionally ill is translated into physical sickness kinda thing... Literally, I call it "Love Sickness."

Yesterday night was really the turning point in my life. Yesterday, I decided to take a half day only at work because I really could not take the pressure in my eyes, the temperature I have and the nausea feeling I just have the whole day.

Though i wanted to sleep by 8pm already, I just felt uneasy. I tried to connect to the web to get my mind off him once again but, there seemed to have no connection.. at all.. I've waited for the longest time but it seemed like PLDT myDSL was just having difficult times now.

So then, I tried to sleep once again and lied in my bed...

Then his head popped into my mind once again... Then there it was once again... A river of tears...

Feeling all lonely and down I decided to call him again... Conversation went by and we decided to break it off...

The following day (which is today), I said I'd bring a car since tonight is relatively variable so I'd just have to bring my car just in case.

God knows I listen to the radio every morning and what radio station I'm listening to. So there I was, driving my way to work and listening to Good Times with Mo on Magic 89.9. Knowing for a fact that they were tagged as a controversial morning show and that they talk about a collection of topics including the most "urban" ones.

I was wierded out when Mo Twister kind of promoted "Christian Groups" that morning. Knowing him, I never thought he would appreciate these things. He said he gave respect for these people and what change they could do to a person's life. He said that if someone just wants to turn their life around and start anew, you could join a "Christian Group" and you will definitely be finding your way back.

Odded I was as I heard that topic on this controversial radio station. But then I sort of was hit by that. It's like I'm one of those persons who needed to get back on track.

During the day, I just cried (like naturally) at my workstation, at the bathroom, at the coffee station, at the meeting room and in front of my dear friend Gretch. Then still with no satisfaction, I called my mom to tell her that we were over.

Then thinking of something to do on my birthday, I looked upon google the "Science Discovery Center" in Mall of Asia. I clicked on the linked and it brought me right to the page of Sonnie. I knew him because he answered suggestively the sensitive question I posted on plurk. Then I already met him also in one of the blog events. Anyway, I was glad to have landed at his blogsite because I found a link to his post about "Love and Marriage".

Though I'm not married I just read it out of curiosity. Then what insight I have but more questions popped in my head.

I plurked saying "I think I need to go to Church." and Sonnie suggested me to join a Christian Group that he suggested if I'm interested.

Later that night I asked him about the Christian Group and he gave me a link to their site. I was about to type the url address of the site when I noticed that, the site was open on my window already @_@...

I am still quite unsure of how it happened. I probably kicked something on one of the pages I have opened but I am really not sure...

My point for today is that God is at work. He never has forsaken me in times of sorrow such as now. He is so merciful that he feels my pain and doesn't want me to feel that no more. So he sent his instruments of peace and love... my friend Gretch, my mom and my family, and the unexpected persons: Sonnie and Mo Twister.

Tonight I felt like I was touched by an angel. That now I could accept things more as they are. And I cried tonight... not for him... but now, I cried for God... For God's mercy and love.